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Intro
02:06
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Real Shit
02:32
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my girl love me more then i love myself like what the hell
sometimes it feels like life would be easier locked in that cell
my life's more then just the money and the wealth
I'm just tryna keep my health i feel it slipping it got me trippin
and I've been drifting fading off into the distance but I'm wishing
that i could get it together so don't get it twisted
my girl think that I'm bull-shitting then again I've never given
her a reason to believe it could be different
cause I'm struggling to make it through the day its no secret
this aint no game believe me when i say that life is deceiving
can i overcome my environment if its stronger then me
on the verge of loosing it and i don't think you understand
the state of my mentality transitioning from boy to man
a kid raising my kids I'm doing the best that i can
i got no job plus these bills keep piling up
so I'm trying to find a way to rise above these times to come
tired of seeing my baby mama cry because these times are rough
times are tight and her 9 to 5 aint giving enough
and i know sometimes i act like i don't give a fuck
can't get past the fact that my past has come back once again and nipped me in the but
my demons aint letting me sleep
I'm just trying to keep on my feet and defeat the beast within me
you know what i mean the man in the mirror the hardest to beat
thats my goal i know its the farthest to reach cuz
I'm in over my head and i get it don't trip
ya I'm far beyond steady but don't sweat it i won't slip
i've been through what most men could never handle and thats the truth
i don't care who believes it whether its him or whether its you
you'd think i've been drinking whiskey from the fountain of youth
cause i've been actin a fool since my adolescence and thats the truth
its no joke when you realize the law is after you
suspended sentence ya they want to throw me back up in the coup
where men who try to cover rent fill up the general population
I'm just saying most us criminals just tryna make it
i aint even tryna fake it I've made mistakes and I've faced it
and paid dearly so don't cross me with that fake shit
or get a facelift i aint playing take it how you wanna take it
man I'm higher then a spaceship with these words that i be saying
i don't care if anybody understands
its nothing I'm use to being all alone in no mans land
i never had no upper hand no wads up in them rubber bands
i been stuck in the gutters so fuck it this aint no wonderland
and thats the way that its got to go
not many options so I'm steady puffing on optimos
call me irresponsible cause I've done heard it before
ya its psychological I've lost the battle but ill win the war
its just a matter of time before they come and kick in the door
but I'm ready for whatever i don't care anymore
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Where The Truth Lies
03:34
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I'm the definition of a fuck up but I'm better then that
just trying to cope with all my mistakes that i made in the past
cause they always seem to bite me in the ass so I'm
always on my guard cause the system wanna send me back
catch a violation do a little less then a year
catch another offense and I'm facing 3 years
hard to keep my mind clear when the devil in my ear
tryna interfere wit my life and strike me with fear
what the hell do you expect me to do
tryna stay straight but the streets are also calling me too
i got out the jungle but the jungle never got out of me
can't help it its part of my anatomy
thats how life in northern cali be
take the wrong turn and your life could end tragically
take a moment just to understand my mentality
hard to cope when you on the brink of insanity
I'm struggling to do right stare into the blue skies
wondering where the truth lies
stare into the moonlight convicted two times
gotta get it together ya its now or never
i could throw it all away and i almost did
on multiple occasions risked everything and didn't win
hurt my baby momma she want me to be there for the kids
but I'm slipping admitting the fact that I'm sick
no matter how hard I'm kicking i keep slipping
in a awkward position following my intuition
my state of condition nothing short of demolition
on a one way ticket to prison ya
i never was one to follow school curriculum
all that bullshit talking ya i keep it to a minimum
anyone want a piece of spinladin i give um some
break um off a piece and chew um up like they some bubble gum
I've come to terms that it is what it is
I'm from the bay where they won't hesitate to merk your kid
10-2 with a shocker now we ready to handle biz
call it the reason for everything i ever did
i aint a bad man just a homie caught up in the mix
a product of my environment ya read my lips
to many people flipping the scripts i aint one for the tricks
thats what makes me tick and how you end up in a ditch
if i never make the wall of fame
its better then having a number instead of a name
and in the end I'm the only one that i can blame
learned at a young age that this is far from a game
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Real Will Relate
03:28
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Got It Covered
03:32
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